Anyone who has been with us on this journey from day 1 knows what a roller coaster I've been on emotion wise. Right before cycle #3 (Lillian's cycle) I was at such peace with whatever the outcome was. Obviously it worked out for us. During that cycle I claimed my verse Philippians 4:6 "Don't worry about anything. Instead pray for everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace which exceeds anything we can understand."
As I think about all we've been through prior to this cycle I can't help but be in awe of how God hand is in everything. It took months (okay years) but i can honestly say I'm at the exact place emotionally as I was before cycle 3. I'd love for it to work out again but if it doesn't I know we'll be okay. God will still be good. L will be fine as an only child. We will continue to have peace.
Today I ran across a verse from Daniel 3:12. All I could think was that's my verse!!
He has never failed me and will not fail me through this cycle. I'd love to be pregnant again, I'd love to give L a sibling, I'd love to add to our story but if none of that happens I'm at peace. I'll trust in His plan for if not He is still good.
