Our Journey (A recap)

There are some new readers and I realized it has been a while since I updated the whole story. It has been surreal going back and reading through everything and realizing how much I've forgotten. So this is as much for me as it is for you!

Just before our 2 year anniversary (May 2006) we decided to officially stop the pill and see what happened. By September, I had not had a cycle for 3 months and decided to see my doctor about it. Keep in mind this was normal for me as I have NEVER been regular. She referred me to an OB/GYN after ruling out pregnancy. I meet with the OB/GYN later that month and after kick starting my cycle we began the clomid regimen. Tried that until Jan. with no success. That is when we were referred to our wonderful specialist. Unfortunately we could not get an appointment with him until March. At that appointment we made a plan to get the family we so wanted. He put me back on the pill to ensure that I would have a regular cycle before we began.

I had my first sonogram in April, only to learn that the clomid had created a large cyst on my right ovary. We were not allowed to begin any meds then and went back on the pill to help shrink the cyst and prevent any new ones from forming. While we were disappointed, there was also a sense of success in feeling we were close to finally getting a child. We also learned that Joel has a fluctuating sperm count so they recommended IUI to help us conceive.

In May, the sonogram revealed that we had no large cysts. We could finally start the drugs. However, they finally got a good look at my left ovary and found a dermoid mass. We were assured that is was probably nothing to worry about as 98% of the time they are benign. We chose to keep an eye on it and if it started changing we would consider removal. So we started a combo cycle of Clomid/Follistim/Ovidril. We did an IUI in May but still were not successful.

This continued in June and July. Combo cycle of Clomid and Follistim/Ovidril shots...IUI...no success. We learned that we would have to take August off because we had completed 3 cycles. We then meet with Dr. Barnett to review our plan and were given two options. We could do an HSG test to make sure there were no blockages and everything looked good or we could do surgery to remove the cyst (which has given me no problems) in hopes that would help. We chose the HSG (and different med plan if it was normal) hoping to find no problems and avoid surgery. Making that decision meant we would go back on the pill and take September off as well.

The HSG came back normal and so we were allowed to begin a new round of just Follistim/Ovidril in October. This meant more shots and more sonograms to closely monitor what was happening. But we were very hopeful. The first cycle was very short and as a result they let us try to get pregnant on our own. What a novel concept that was! In fact it was almost a relief to not include a doctor. We were unsuccessful and tried again in November. Since our cycle fell around Thanksgiving (and we were out of town) they let us try again on our own. Again no success but we felt as though we were making progress because I responded really well to the meds. Since we were doing higher doses, we are only allowed two months at a time. As a result we had to take Dec. off and wait until Jan.

We did one last IUI in February and again it was not successful. We then met with Dr. B in March (just a few days after moving into the new house)and decided to move on to IVF. We signed up for the IVF orientation class in April and got all the paperwork and such in order. We then started saving money knowing insurance wouldn't cover it. Orientation in April was overwhelming. We learned a lot about the process of IVF, embryologists, embryos, etc. It is a wonder anyone gets pregnant themselves!We then sat back and waited until May.

Finally May came, and we stared prep for IVF. Shots, shots, and more shots were the daily routine. Lupron first thing in the morning, later to add on Follistim in the evening, to finally have mature eggs to be released by the Ovidril. We then went in for the retrieval and 5 days later the transfer. Two weeks later, we learned we were not pregnant. We were devastated, but decided to try one more IVF in the new year after meeting with Dr. B in July. I also started going to an acupuncture doctor who specialized in infertility in September 2008. (I continued until we got pregnant with Lillian.)

We did IVF round #2 in February of 2009. We got pregnant but miscarried soon afterwards. We then learned we still had fertility coverage and so we decided to try one last time. IVF #3 was in august of 2009. We got pregnant with Lillian from that cycle and also had two embryos to freeze. We used those embryos in a FET cycle in March of 2012 and got pregnant. However, we went for our first sonogram on April 13 and discovered it was not a viable pregnancy so had a D&C a week later.

This takes us to where we are now. We are waiting to finish IVF round #4. We thank God daily that there are people like Dr. B, the awesome nurses, the embryologists, etc. that help people like us for a living.

Even through all the valleys, we are amazed at God's faithfulness and timing. We desperately want L to have a sibling but are enjoying her and praying for God's plan.

We are in many ways honored to share our journey as God never promised life would be easy. He simple promised never to leave us or give us more than we could handle. Yes, God is good and is faithful to his children. We hope you have been as blessed as we have!