Striving for Peace

"Don’t worry about anything: instead, pray for everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace which exceeds anything we can understand."
-Philippians 4:6

This pretty much sums up the whole IVF experience this time. As I mentioned before, I was pretty apathetic throughout this attempt. It seemed like many days I just went through the motions of shots, Dr. visits, blood work, etc. I just couldn't bring myself to get really emotionally involved. In fact, this time I did so much better in just handing it all to God. Honestly, I did exactly what Philippians says, I prayed for everything. The good, the bad and the ugly. I focused not just on me but on all the others I know who are struggling right now. I learned to "Let go, and Let God." And you know what, it worked. In return, I received incredible peace and we received results beyond anything we would have tried to imagine.

It is not to say that I wasn't stressed. Every time the lab called, I could feel my heart pounding and blood pressure rising expecting worse case scenario. And each time, I was given amazing news and peace that God continued to be in control. He taught me that he is much better at the control thing than I am (much to my dismay).

So it goes to say that when we showed up at the hospital for the transfer, I gave it all to Him again. I tried not to worry about it (unfortunately my heart rate and blood pressure gave me away) so they requested the embryologist come early so I could get some Valium. :) Honestly, this was the most terrifying moment for me. Learning the quality of our embryos produces a whole new level of stress normal parents never have to endure. We were soon comforted by the nurse and embryologist who walked in with 2 thumbs up.

We transferred two of the best looking embryos we've ever had. The lab rates them on a letter scale with A being the best and D being poor. They very rarely see any A rankings and if you recall last time we transferred a BCB and BBB. This time we transferred......ABB and BBB! We were told no less than 4 times by Dr. B and once by the head embryologist what great looking embryos we had. Dr. B. even said they were exactly like the example photos they use in the IVF training slide show we had to attend last year. We felt great at the results!

But it gets even better. Before we left the hospital on Tuesday, one of the embryologists poked his head in our room to tell us that they were going to go ahead a freeze 2 of the remaining embryos! I would have done a happy dance except I was on bed rest and I'm not supposed to get my heart rate up. We are absolutely THRILLED with the blessings God has bestowed on us.

We want to thank each of you for following our journey, loving and supporting us in the process, and praying for us. Please know how much it means to us to have a strong base of support. Also, thanks for all the comments on the last post. It was so much fun to see who all is reading. Keep it up!

Regardless of what happens next week, we will continue to trust in God's plan and be amazed at his faithfulness. Our God is an awesome God!